So I wanted to write this as soon as I got to my hotel before going out to grab lunch but in a series of flight issues, I got to my hotel around 1pm and was able to check in so as soon as I dropped off my stuff I changed and darted to food.
I’m happy to be able to write this now though since I found myself wandering around London for hours and fell in love with all of it and felt amazing just going with whatever my heart wanted to. So here we go…
Mom, I knew you would be sad to see me go off to airport security this morning (yesterday morning?? I don’t know, I’m very messed up with the time difference and lack of sleep) but I didn’t expect myself to tear up too. I’ll be gone for about 4 weeks and that made me realize how much I was going to miss all of you every day especially not knowing anybody out here or on my tour group through Europe. And I know you’re scared and worried about me with all the craziness in the world, especially in London these last few months but as I’m sitting in my hotel room I want you to know that I will be perfectly fine and I mean it.
Yes, the thought of a sudden terror attack is scary, but what scares me more is never seeing the world for myself, never meeting people from different areas and backgrounds, and not being thrown into a situation where I have to learn and grow. Already today, I have done all three of those things and I found myself lost in a place (don’t freak, out I mean figuratively, I had Google Maps helping me out) that I already love! I know the world can be a terrifying place, but please know that this is something I have always wanted to do and I would rather live a wonderful life out in the world than live to be 100 but never leave the OC/LA bubble.
Travelling solo is scary and sounds lonely but I’m learning that going solo has allowed me to branch out to talk to others which I wouldn’t do if I had a friend glued to my side. The only downside is probably not getting the best pictures of myself to send to you. So once again mom, I’ll be fine. I’ll miss all of you everyday but don’t worry too much about me because I’ll also be having the time of my life!